Growing up, my sisters and I loved elves and trolls, gnomes and fairies--whimsical creatures with intricate, magical stories were among our favorites to act out--in plays, in the woods around our house and in our favorite spot, a secret cubbyhole in the twins' bedroom. The more mysticism shrouding the stories around King Tut, pioneer times, the Old West, the better. ("They actually had to get water from a bucket and a well. And all they got in their stockings were oranges! Can you believe it?!?")
My favorite mystical creature? The dinosaur. I had dinosaur books, dinosaur t-shirts, plastic dinosaur toys, even mini stegosaruses (stegosauri?) that expanded in water. My mom, craftier, cleverer and wittier than most, coined a household phrase during the Dinosaur Age that we still throw around every once in awhile:
If at first you don't succeed, try, Triceratops.
If at first you knit a sweater that doesn't fit, darn it, start another one.
I will not let one Sweater Gone Wrong get in the way of knitterly success.
We are now saying goodbye to the first decade of the new millennium, and I'm a little sad. This decade has been a good one for me. I graduated from college, knit my first sweater (and many more!), married my best friend, purchased a dream business, saw two of my sisters married, learned to spin, welcomed change.
I've made mistakes, too. Business, personal, marital. Lots of them. And I'm sorry. But more than sorry, I'm grateful for the chance to start fresh, for the do-over feeling I get from the passing of the calendar's pages. I will try to be the best parts of me I can, learning new secrets, building new bridges and patching old hurts. Most assuredly, I'll fail--more than once--but darn it, I can't not try.
A good friend sent me a particularly encouraging note at this time last year, and I hope you'll find it as comforting as I do:
The new year is a chance to begin again...to let go of the past year's mistakes and focus on getting them right in the new one.
All the good things you tried for but didn't achieve, try again. All the things you searched for but didn't find, may you find this year. All the things you dared not do, may you have the will of spirit to finally take a chance and do them.
May your faith be renewed, may your hope be rejuvenated and your dreams, ah, yes, your dreams, may they be awakened.
May 2010 be the brilliant adventure you've been waiting for. Love to you, my friends.